Wednesday, October 10, 2012

It has been way to long

After moving home to school, I have been asked a lot how it is going and if I am enjoying it...well today I shall give everyone the answer!

Saying goodbye to New York in January was one of the hardest things I have had to do in my life. I think it was even harder to do then saying goodbye to Daleville. But, even though that was one of the hardest things I had to may have been the one of the best things.

Not only was I starting a whole new major in March but I was also going to have to face having a long distance relationship, plan a wedding, and search for a church family. With the long distance relationship I was able to learn how much I could really love and miss someone. It showed me how much Ted truly meant to me! Also it showed me how strong we really are as a couple and how to really work together in so many different ways! And obviously we are doing great to this dayyyyy and I don't think I could be any happier now that he is only 15 miles away from me rather than 500! The wedding going! Only 17 days left!! The search for a church family, is still in the process.. I wish I could just pick up Grace Baptist Church and move them to Muncie, Indiana! So yeah.... I well Ted and I now are still on a hunt to find a church to call family!

School...the big question!? I LOVE IT! In the spring I had an extremely rough start! As you all have heard I had a class I hated and also 3 other classes that were just boring to me. But, this fall I am taking all Child Life focused classes and I LOVE every minute of them! Two of my classes involve labs on which I go to a preschool lab/childcare for three hours in the morning and play with the kids and also write observations and put together activities! I do the same thing three hours in the afternoon with infant and toddlers! These labs happen on Wednesday which are long but wonderful days! I am also in a parenting class that I love and am raising a virtual child, which is a lot of fun! My other class I am taking is social work. This class is fun too, but can be very heartbreaking at times. I have just recently received an e-mail that says my grades are high enough to be considered to be part of the Family Consumer Science Honers Society! This is super exciting and I will find out more about it next week!

The next thing I have to say about school is mostly why I am writing this blog post! Today I was able to attend a metting that had a Child Life Specilast come and talk to us about the feild! I really wanted to go to this to just make sure I knew what I was getting into and to see if this is truely what I want to be doing with my life! She talked to us on how a Child Life Specialist can work from in a dentist office to a pedi rehab center to a family councler with children with developmental disabiblites to a childrens hospital! This was so exciting to see that there are many fields to which I can go into! She mentioned this camp that she has founded where you spend a week with children who have spinal cord injuries and you just make it fun for them because most of them just sit infront of a TV all day in a hospital setting. This was very eye opening and a way I can do an extra practicum for 140 hours and make a difference in a child's life! It is something I really want to look into! She also talked about how Child Life Specialist job is to remind medical staff that play is very imporant, to advocate for child's cormfort and the feeling of being safe, to make the hospital a postive experience and to accomony the child anywhere they want us to come! <3 She also said that she will be a connection for us to keep for life! This is my first proffessional connection I have made in the Child Life setting! eeek!

The down side of this meeting was she did tell us how very very very competitive this field of study is in Indiana. She told us that Riley, Riley North and Payton Manning Child's Hospitals only accept one intern a semester. While Fort Wayne accepts two. This is a little scary. She also told us that our internship we have to do before we graduate has to be 500 hours! She also said some internships will not take you if you do not have over 150 volunteer hours in a Child Life Center..... :O <--- this needs to be fixed in my life because I am standing with ZERO! She warned us that if we do not have a lot of experince we will have a very hard time finding a job...

So after I have a little freak out session in my head on how stressfull this could get and how far behind I am, I was reminded that this is where God wants me to be and what he wants me to be doing...He remined me this when she said

"A Child Life Specialist looks at a child as being well

first while the Medical Staff looks at the

child as being sick first."

This statement melted my heart...and knew that me, myself and I have always looked at a child in the eyes of a child is just a child no matter what else is going on. The deserve every right to be a child and to play and be happy no matter what they have to overcome or have to face! So I will hold this in my heart and consonantly remember my little motivator to keep me going! Bracey will always stay on my study desk and phone so whenever I am feeling run down or stressed I just have to look at their smiles and know....this is why God put me on this earth! <3 

Also I need to remember that no matter who tries to knock me down and tell me how hard it can be to find a job or internship or whatever... that I do not put my faith in their words but in God's plan for me!

Joshua 1:9 Have not I commanded you? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be you dismayed: for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.

Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust in the LORD with all your heart; and lean not upon your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct your path.

love always,
Me :)

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

There is more to a person and to the world then sex....

Hello Blogging World its been a while,

Hmmm where to start, I honestly do not have any idea where or how to stat this blog post. My heart is aching right now for the lost for the people who do not know the Lord and do not know that this world holds nothing compared to the place God has been making for us. It sadness my heart to see how today's society allows so many wrong things. How people live for worldly pleasures. I'm happy to say that what you experience in this world is not even a centimeter close to what God has for you after he comes back to get us, don't forget that! Don't let the world take over your hear.

1 John 2:15

Love not the world, neither the things [that are] in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him. 
 Let me first start off that I truly do respect everyone's different thoughts and beliefs but when my beliefs are put to the test, trampled on and made fun of do not ask me to sit it out. Also do not think I will hold back what I have to say to about what I believe if you ask. Also I do demand respect from you when you read this, I will not have you bash this post just like I will never bash your thoughts, so if you read this keep your mind open and your mouth shut and if you do not like what I have to say, you can just leave :)

Okay, so lets just start at the beginning,
In high school I made a promise to God that I would remain pure until marriage. Also I learned very fast that this would label me as a "goody too shoe" or "different". And to me this was okay, because I knew was I was doing the right thing and doing the right thing may come with a price to pay. Just like I knew doing the right thing would bring honor to God and shine a light unto the dark. After learning about what my friends have done, I was quick to judge them. After judging them I then knew I was wrong to judge but that judgement should only come from God and that he would give out his judgment when the time came so my job was not to judge but to shine my light and try to give Godly advice. Maybe I didn't give the best advice or always said the right thing, but I do know that I tried. So being the "weird girl" or the girl a boy couldn't get anything from I graduated with only having dated 2 boys, one only being a "real" relationship. I am proud to say that I never gave anything to a boy and graduated with a heart saved for the man God had set aside for me.

Moving into college wearing my "true love waits" ring I knew when people looked at me they would judge me in the matter of seconds. Quickly I learned that those "seconds" were more like "milliseconds" and people turned their noses and moved their mouths quickly. Now I wasn't just the "weird girl" but more the girl who was "inexperienced" and made fun off. This was hard a first since in high school I had some people who supported me.

 I spent my first 2 and a half years of college at a Community College in New York. I met my fiance there and I am so thankful for that, because without him and his family I do not know if I could of stayed there that whole time. People would ask me about my true love waits ring and then either accept what I had to say about it or quickly judge me on what I had to say. I know I have had times when people would make fun of me for it and I would just have to smile and walk away. But, Ted would always encourage me about what I was doing right and so would my mom. So I got thought it just like another challenge I had to face.

After those two and a half years I  changed my major and I moved home. I then started taking my sexuality class that I have blogged about in my earlier post. Which you are more than welcome to read :) So I'm just going to pretend that you have read it and start off from there. Not only has my teacher taken this class to extreme but now has brought someone in from Pure Romance to come talk to us about sex toys and sex lubes and stuff. Yeah yeah yeah, your saying what that's fun!! Well, to me its not. If you want to go to a party for them or to go and have fun with your girls then, that's for YOU to decided. I should not have to have something I do not agree with pushed upon me. If you don't know what pure romance is, its about how you can make your masturbation the best thing possible or how to make your sex life perfect....So with sitting in class for about 20 minutes my heart started to hurt and I knew God was talking to me. I knew to shine my light and to take a stand for my beliefs was I would have to walk out. So once the teacher went through and started putting on edible lubricant on peoples arms I walked out with my head held high.

And now I'm here telling you whats wrong with the picture,

I understand how some people may want to "experiment" with these different types of things, but these different things should be discussed with you and your HUSBAND OR WIFE!!! NOT A CLASS OF COLLEGE STUDENTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DO I MAKE MYSELF CLEAR!?!!?!!!!?!? I understand that MARRIED people may want to come up with different things but that is FOR THEM TWO to decided not the WHOLE CLASS AND TEACHER. Its not that I'm against sex, yes is something MARRIED people will do and its something that GOD has given to us as a GIFT, its the fact that we are talking about it as if its okay for us to do with ourselves and to do before marriage. It is the fact that it is okay for us to be so consumed with our own sexual pleasures rather than be concerted about what pleases God. It is the fact that I'm sitting in a class with 20 plus people who are not married learning how to please themselves and their PARTNERS not SPOUSE! THIS IS A PROBLEM! HELLO WORLD WAKE UP!!!  We are too worried about how to please sourceless first than how to please our GOD! We are too worried about sex and not worried enough about how to help others! THESE THINGS SHOULD BE DECIDED BETWEEN ONE MAN AND ONE WOMEN AND GOD WHO ARE MARRIED RATHER THAN SOME GIRL OR BOY WANTING TO PLEASE THEMSELVES! ALSO THERE IS MORE TO A PERSON AND TO THIS WORLD THAN SEX! and if you do struggle with this and dont understand more, there is HOPE for you and God FORGIVES EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING you may have done, that is what makes HIM SO GREAT! He loves you and wants you to walk with him and wants your heart too!

To end this ramble of thoughts, I just want to say that today I walked out for the first time because something was being forced upon me that had no way of helping me live for God but only for myself. and I REFUSE TO PUT GOD LAST AND MYSELF FIRST! and I hope you do too.

love always,